25 March 2016

A from-from-miserable Saturday

For the longest time, I thought my dream of watching Les Misérables would only come true if I ever get to reach West End in London, which is quite a far-off dream in itself already. So when the news came in October last year that a production will run the show in Manila, my friends and I did not miss a heartbeat and bought tickets. Deciding then and there that I'm taking Gabriel with me, even if he wasn't a fan. (I had months to make him one, and of course I was successful. :)))


Aside from having to go so far in the souuuutttthhh, our March 19 Les Mis Adventure was a great experience, getting to watch a piece of theater that has captured the hearts of millions for the past 30 years. And though the chosen venue for the show's Philippine run—an upscale hub of gambling—can make you do a double-take considering the theme of Victor Hugo's chef-d'oeuvre, we dared not miss the chance.


It was another Boublil-Schönberg work that introduced me and my friends to musicals, in the form of Miss Saigon, back in 2004. For more than a decade, we only had our imagination to accompany the emotional songs and the sweeping orchestra music. It was only in 2011 that I began to earnestly learn more about Les Mis and its incarnations, most notably the Boublil-Schönberg musical.


I know it's going to sound too cheesy, too Romantic (capital R for Grantaire haha), but when I came upon the fate of Les Amis de l'ABC, of Enjolras and the rest of the #BarricadeBoys, I was affected to the core. At that point, I was about to graduate and embark on the adult life, trying to figure out my purpose and my path. And there they were, merely schoolboys, so passionate about their cause and even dying for it. What grander sacrifice to live and die for La Patria? How full is the heart that aches for a brighter future, not for the self, but for the trodden ones? 

Before getting into the theater, like the millenials that we are, we goofed around and posed for pictures in front of the posters. Here's me clasping Enjolras's hand, and all of us joining the cause of the Amis. :))

 

Needless to say, I was in shambles by the start of the Second Act until the end. That Gavroche-Grantaire Hug, the two whom I call the lost boys, broke me for real. In fact, it's all downhill from Drink With Me. I just feel so much for these young idealists, it's so absurd and embarrassing. And my heart swelled and got crushed in turn for the story of Valjean and Cosette—two worthy people who deserve utter and complete happiness.


Of course, the whole of the play was amazing. All the time, the word that kept springing to my mind was "evocative." It was the whole point of the work, to make people pine and cry and laugh and hope with the characters. (But mostly cry, haha.) The stellar performance of the actors (so, so, so good), the incredible and fascinating set (super gandaaaaa), the topnotch scoring and gorgeous costumes, all melded into a complete emotional roller coaster of an experience. Les Mis explores humanity and love, justice and mercy, survival and selflessness, which the musical translated into evocative performances. It was surreal to have finally been able to see it live. 

Hey, Orestes. The people of Manila have stirred and don't seem to be abandoning you just yet. :)) 


Someday, when I get to watch it again, I will go to the stage door and see the actors in the flesh. Haha! Fangirl. Nonetheless, it was also a great way celebrate our official 15th month together, though Gabriel and I never really do "monthsaries."  


Too bad we weren't able to take photos with Marifel and her sister, since they were heading the other way while we had to go back north. Haha. We ended the day with some ramen, and we patted ourselves on the back for embarking on another episode of #TitasofSanMateo. :))

04 March 2016

Paradox and bullet points

Crazy how the days seem to pass me by. So much happened for the past few weeks, including the anxiety for my application for an overseas workshop, all the drama that went (goes) with my bid for a higher position in the office, my first Bicol and Singapore trips–both with Gabriel, my never-ending to-do list here at work, stocking up on frustration information and references for post grad studies, #AteDuties at home... 

These past few weeks, I got really close to conceding in that one fight I promised I would see to the end. Suddenly, I just got so tired of taking the "moral high ground," so utterly confused as to why some people can be just so mean, so intent on bringing others down. It's toxic, but I need to remind myself that I'm in a position where I have a lot to be grateful for. And I thank my ultimate stressball (♥) for reminding me this, too. That I didn't do anything wrong, that I'm putting up a good, clean fight. And it's not only for myself, but for the chance to bring about change.

See, I've learned that when you get to be in a position that commands respect, you have the capacity to implement change and make others follow your example. This is what I will strive to do, with the opportunities that I have. To not denounce in broad strokes, but to realize–and act on–the fact that I have what it takes to bring about positivity and improvement.

Everyone is fighting their own battles. I am wont to get envious of others, to be disdainful of where I am now, which is, more or less a gray area. But a gray area that does people good, even if they don't know it.  It can be condemned by the highest of highs and lowest of lows, and it's sad when I witness such. But as Gang Badoy once said during a meeting, "It is unfair, that the other side can say things freely and you have to be the bigger man. But it's the way it is, and you need to work from there." Non-verbatim, of course. 

I probably am not making much sense with such vagueness. Haha. I guess I'm just a little flummoxed with everything that's happening, and everything that I have to deal with lately.

Tough march, tough March. But let's carry on.