25 February 2014

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/gpoy /gpoy so hard
[from tumblr, of course]

I alternate between "I'm too self-absorbed for my own good still–I don't even know what to do with my life–so I can't imagine committing to something beyond myself," to "I have to look out for others, as I always have, so I can't afford to focus on myself yet, or at all" mentalities. I'm getting chronic headaches. 

17 February 2014

One more night...

It's been a year. Still one of the most awesome nights ever.

05 February 2014

Alba

... I felt as if I were assembling a jigsaw puzzle in which each piece has a specific place. Before I put the puzzle together, it all seemed incomprehensible to me, but I was sure that if I ever managed to complete it, the separate parts would each have meaning and the whole would be harmonious... At times I feel as if I had lived all this before and that I have already written these very words, but I know it was not I: it was another woman, who kept her notebooks so that one day I could use them. I write, she wrote, that memory is fragile and the space of a single life is brief, passing so quickly that we never get a chance to see the relationship between events; we cannot gauge the consequences of our acts, and we believe in the fiction of past, present, and future, but it may also be true that everything happens simultaneously...  
— Isabel Allende, The House of the Spirits

02 February 2014

Férula

She was one of those people who are born for the greatness of a single love, for exaggerated hatred, for apocalyptic vengeance, and for the most sublime forms of heroism, but she was unable to shape her fate to the dimensions of her amorous vocation, so it was lived out as something flat and gray trapped between her mother's sickroom walls, wretched tenements, and the tortured confessions with which this large, opulent, hot-blooded woman – made for maternity, abundance, action, and ardor – was consuming herself. 
 — Isabel Allende, The House of the Spirits