of rubble and sins

of rubble and sins from summerghost on 8tracks Radio.

a mix for the rebuilding of the north after the great war among the kings and queens, for the northmen's united rise from the ruins after the battle of ice and fire, for winterfell whose springs as warm as blood flow through the veins of its walls, for the heirs of the great house whose hearts, broken and cold, never stopped yearning for home

In Our Bedroom After the War | Stars
all the living are dead/ and the dead are all living/ the war is over/ we are beginning

Bad Blood | Bastille
all this bad blood here/ won’t you let it dry?/ it’s been cold for years/ won’t you let it lie?

That's Okay | The Hush Sound
you want to go back to where you felt safe/ to hear your brother's laughter/ see your mother's face/ your childhood home is just powder-white bones/ and you'll never find your way back

A City of Sleeping Hearts | Urbandub
i ponder the loss of stars/ in the night sky/ the smoked-filled air tonight/ for all of us/ i weep for our loss

Sunrise Ends | Stars of Track and Field
a myriad of color shines/ you're a rhythm that no one can unwind/ so come on, come out wherever/ you have gone for the winter

12 Fingers | Young the Giant
but when those sounds sang from our halls/ the backstop pressed against bleached walls/ do you remember the sound of snow?

Turn the Dirt Over | Sea Wolf
oh, turn the water over/ if you want to flow down/ oh, open up the shutters/ see the falling snow/ the falling snow

Innocence | Björk
when i once was/ untouchable/ innocence roared/ still amazes/ when i once was/ innocent/ it's still here/ but in different places

End Of All Time | Stars of Track and Field
you burn bright when you're left alone/ build up speed to bring you home/ turn off the lights and watch you glow

Winter Bones | Stars
can i come to your house?/ caught in the ropes and the wires/ the sunset is hard in the south/ winter lives in my bones/ it's all i've known/ it's all i've known

Daniel in the Den | Bastille
and for every king that died/ oh they would crown another/ and it’s harder than you think/ telling dreams from one another

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This has been sitting in my drafts for the longest time. The bands I've been listening to lately are giving me so much Stark/Winterfell/North feels, thus this mix (and the account and the lousy artwork). Haha. 

I feel like Stargirl.

Will this end up as a tragedy, too?

Twenty Thirteen: Tickets, Transitions, and Testing the Waters

The last two months of 2013 witnessed a constant stream of reaffirmation of my connections with different groups of people. Despite the seeming routine in my daily life now, I know that I am still in a limbo, unsure of what to do next, anxious of things falling into a helpless disarray any moment. Reconnecting with people from the more "stable" and "definite" phases of my life, I guess, is like a reprieve from the uncertainty of the present.

In 2013, I changed jobs, surprisingly adapted well to the new environment (or so I hope), found new shows to follow, attended concerts of two favorite bands (I couldn't believe I was able to see live), watched as many theater shows and movies as I could, met new friends, discovered new books and authors to read, listened to new music, strengthened bonds with people who matter, pondered about the next step to take.

2013 has been the first full year I've been out of college, away from the haven of the Diliman campus. It has also been a year marked with indecision, with insecurities, with plans that never materialized, with books unread, with thoughts unwritten and unsaid, with disappointments, self-constraints and crippling doubts. I know that it hasn't been actually a productive year in terms of travels taken, of tangible outputs, nor of achievements and obstacles overcome.

But in the past year, I guess I opened myself more to the idea of capturing and embracing what the present has to offer as well as welcoming change. Upon introspection, I realized that compared to the previous years, I became  more eager to take and hold on to things as they come, to not let opportunities and once-in-a-lifetime chances pass me by. Yet, I also strive to be receptive of doing things that I'm not accustomed to, of lowering my defenses a bit to give way to new ideas and experiences.

As 2014 begins, I hope this openness in the face of transitions continue. I hope I will continue to be less afraid to test the waters and make mistakes. I hope the bonds I've made and will make with people flourish. I hope I get to see more of the world in the form of art to appreciate, of new skills to learn, of adventures to be had.