Relapse

i.

there's a reason why you're jaded. there's a reason for your cynicism beyond what you've been telling the world. it's been this way before. it's always been this way for as long as you can remember. why should you believe this time's going to be any different?

ii.
praying for love and paying in naivety
praying for love and paying in naivety, oh

iii.

the metal instruments hit my skin, sounding like a fish flapping on the ground. i feel a tug here, and then there, but i don't feel the stark pain of being cut up. but it hurts, in a way, and i can't keep the tears from falling. with addled senses, i shut my eyes tight against the blinding light. please be over soon, please be over soon. 

iv.

it's better to burn than to fade away
it's better to leave than to be replaced